Hope

Hope is a funny thing. It always seems to be in the back of people's minds. No matter what happens, there is always a glimmer of hope. I guess that is part of being a Christian. I won't go into too many details because the heartache is still very raw. I was a mother again, this time for almost two weeks. It didn't work out and to be honest, that glimmer of hope is so small right now, it leaves me breathless.  But somewhere it is there. I just need to get up courage to fit this demon and stand tall again. Where does this leave me in the adoption process?  Waiting like usual. At this point it seems I may be waiting for a miracle.  Miracles do happen, I believe it.  People say how wonderful it is for me to open my home to an orphan. I think the wonderful part will be when I actually get an official referral. I long for that day more than anything. Until than, I live, I heal, I hope.

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  1. ElizabethJuly 10, 2013 at 10:04 PM

    Dear Colleen,
    My heart knows the ache of your heart. I have lost two children in the process. One it turned out wasn't available after all and then the little girl I had put in an application to adopt I had to withdraw due to illness. I am halfway through chemo treatments now and can't even see myself returning to the classroom at the moment. Hang in there and try to stay positive. There is a child out there that needs you and as hard as it to believe it, the time will come. If you visit my blog, under the blogs I follow on the right hand side, waiting parents, is "Dreaming Under the Same Moon". This mama has been through soooo much and six years into the process finally has a referral for a little girl in Vietnam. Her strength, determination and perseverance is amazing.
    Hugs,
    Elizabeth

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