My Mom

I was watching a show tonight and someone said " my greatest gift until the day I die, is being a mom." It truly breaks my heart to know that that gift for me may very well be far off. I know it is in God's timing but I was put on this earth to be a mom. I am ready, I have been ready for years. I trust in my God with my whole being, but I feel such a strong need to have an adopted child, it pains my core.


You see, my mom is my best friend. When I told her I wanted to adopt at the ripe old age of 27, she thought I was crazy. It took her a few months but boy did she jump on board. Since I officially started the process, my mom has given up herself for my adoption. All Christmas and birthday gifts became donations for my adoption. I honor her, my daughter will forever hold her name.

My mom is someone who would give me the shirt off her back, her last meal, he everything, and that is why she is my everything. Today, my mom had surgery.  Honestly, even though deep down I knew it wasn't left threatening, it still rattled me.  Never has there been a love as strong as ours. We argue, she gives the best dirty look, and yet I wouldn't change a thing.  She is a strong woman and I love her to the moon and back.




I know that Annie Margaret will fit in our pact perfect. I know my mom tries to be strong as I grieve for motherhood. The truth is she is breaking too. What an inspiration I have to look up to!  I love you Mommy!

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  1. UnknownMarch 22, 2013 at 9:20 AM

    Colleen, I love you so much and am so proud to be your mother. I will continue to pray that we hear great news from India soon!

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